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September 4, 2003 | 10:09 PM Central Time
You never said "Off the record" Hehe
This is a conversation with a friend of mine on Yahoo... it's been so long since we've talked that I have forgotten his name again so we'll just call him "dragon." Sorry Dragon.
Amanda: Hiyas Dragon: hey you!!! Amanda: How are you? Dragon: good you? Amanda: Great! Dragon: yea? Amanda: Yep. Dragon: not according to diary Amanda: Shit, I feel... Amanda: Okay. Amanda: I feel lousy and I miss Justin and he promised that we'd always be friends! Dragon: but Amanda: But... maybe it's best for both of us. Amanda: How did you know there was a "but?" Dragon: there always is Amanda: He said that it'd probably hurt us both in the end, I don't feel that way but, it's his emotions. Amanda: I just need a friend... someone like him who opens windows and doors to happiness and sunshine for me. Amanda: That sounds cheesy as hell, huh? Dragon: what will hurt you? not cheesy Amanda: Him? I don't know. (Thanks) Amanda: I just need someone around me who is constantly making me smile and laugh... and that's him. Amanda: Even when we're fighting... he never fails to atleast get a small grin out of me. Dragon: that's what you think now Amanda: What do you mean? Dragon: you always think they are the one when you first break it off Amanda: I'm going to put pieces of this conversation on my diary? Is that okay? Good, I thought so. You never said off the record. Amanda: I'm not saying that he's the one, I am just saying that he's someone who makes me happy while I am stuck here in this shitty town. Dragon: hold on a sec Dragon: phone Amanda: Okay, BRB too. Amanda: I'm back, aren't you pleased? Amanda: Hurry up, dude! Dragon: lol Dragon: go ahead Amanda: What? Amanda: Go ahead, what? Dragon: i'm back Amanda: Okay. Dragon: things always seem dark when the sun goes down Dragon: lol Amanda: Things don't seem dark, they just seem a bit cloudy. Dragon: but if you wait it out the moon will be there Amanda: I can live without the guy, okay? I just don't want to... he's my buddy. Dragon: ok Dragon: so talk on the phone with him Amanda: No, I am just going to leave him alone. Dragon: might be best Amanda: If he wants to talk, he'll come to me. Dragon: yes he will Dragon: however don't reinforce any abuse towards you Amanda: What? Like pulling my hair out and crying and screaming like I usually do when I have an "episode?" Dragon: no Dragon: don't let him think he can pick you up and drop you whenever and you will let him Amanda: LOL... I think I showed him that he couldn't last night. I said goodbye, didn't I? Dragon: but if he come back and you are eager he will know Dragon: plus your diary Amanda: Who gives a damn about my diary? I am always putting shit on there that I don't mean. Amanda: I usually delete those entries, though. Dragon: easy there killer Dragon: just giving advice Amanda: LOL Dragon: i've had my dark moments Amanda: I've noticed.
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